The Musical Era of JW's Birth

An era is often defined by its music.

Recently, upon the death of Clarence Clemons of the E Street Band, Vin Scelsa of WFUV-FM in New York played a musical remembrance. It is slightly less than 20 minutes long and can be found at this link. At the end of this recording, Vin talks about how the early music of the E Street Band was emblematic not only of an era (the mid-seventies, the time when JW was born) but also of a geographic area, the Jersey Shore, a place where JW lived very early in his life. This music, and the era that Vin reminisces about, was what John's parents where immersed in when he came into our lives.

Big Bro / Little Sis

In the post below, Jes recounts memories of growing up with her brothers and the attendant teasing and the like which took place in any sibling relationship.

Our earliest memory of JW and Jes dates back to a few days after she was born. JW was 7 years older than his little sister, who was born 6 weeks premature and 400 miles from home. Although all turned out well, it was a pretty stressful time for all. We, of course, tried to shield our children from our worries. Nonetheless, even as a 7-year-old, JW was pretty sharp in observing things going on around him.

Thus, it was no surprise that the first night we finally got back to our home (then south of Richmond, VA), we noticed that JW was very upset and not very willing to talk about it. He finally told us what was worrying him, specifically he was worried that his baby sister was going to die. So, from the very beginning, JW was looking out for his little sis, a role he never relinquished, to this day.

Happy 35th John

Over the weekend of John's 35th birthday, I thought a lot about John (not that I need a special occasion to do so) and at times pondering what life would be like if John were still with us. However, after reading Dad's posting about having "no need to refer to 'what would have been'. He did not live his life waiting to fulfill his potential, rather, for every year of life he celebrated, John made the most of what he was given".

So, instead of thinking about what life could've been, I shared great stories of what is was like to grow up with two big brothers. Although at the time (and my parents can attest to it), I thought my brothers made my life miserable, I would never trade a day back. I have been blessed to have two brothers that continuously look out for me, just in different ways.

Happy 35th birthday John!

"Siblings are the people we practice on, the people who teach us about fairness and cooperation and kindness and caring- quite often the hard way."

~ Pamela Dugdale

A Toast to John

Happy Birthday John!!

It has been a long few years and looking back, it is amazing to see how much things have changed but also, how much is still the same. A John memory to share actually implicates myself into a small listener of country music. It was five years ago, and Gina and I were driving on the Beltway approaching the Wilson Bridge when the Kenney Chesney song "My Next 30 Years" came on the radio. I was quick to call you to rub in the fact that you were turning 30 that week, an age you had apprehensions of reaching. Going to voice mail, we were laughing our asses off while I left you a message with the song blaring in the background. (I am sure there is some country lyric out there that could describe the activities of that birthday party; beer, imported beach sand and a bar owner power washing the outdoor patio after we were asked to leave). As always, good times, good memories and the never ending story of how your last year on this Earth was truly your best; a standard that I as a father, husband, brother and son try to emulate everyday.

As for your 35th birthday, in keeping with tradition, we celebrated it at Levante's Restaurant in Dupont Circle last night. And we captured a great picture of the birthday toast between Dad and Ariana (and no, that is not wine in her sippy cup). Tradition also dictated that we come to the birthday dinner with Hokie Wine in hand, still at $6.99 a bottle. (Hokie wine is going to be the new gauge of American economic strength, so look forward to getting an update on the price of cheap wine at your 40th birthday to see if our economy has recovered any).

Another year has passed, which for us, is another chance to live life to the fullest, exactly how you left this world.

The Gift of the Son

Today is Fathers' Day -- tomorrow is JW's birthday. The two, of course, are forever linked.

I've found myself over the past several days referring to tomorrow as what would have been John's 35th birthday. I've come to realize that referring to it as such is inappropriate. There is nothing about the person JW became that "would have been."

Rather, JW is a tremendous man who enjoyed the gift of life for 30 years. There is no need to refer to "what would have been." He did not live his life waiting to fulfill his potential. Rather, for every year of life he celebrated, John made the most of what he was given. He lived his life to the fullest, in an extremely giving way.

Tomorrow we celebrate what JW was and continues to be -- a powerful force for making the world a better place because not only did he live, but he loved and was loved -- and continues as such.

Today, and everyday, I am thankful for the legacy my son has left for his father -- and for the continuing gift of John's brother and sister, his sister-in-law, and of course, his niece (none of whom would have been possible but for JW's mom).

5th Annual JW Kickball & Kegger Fest

For what would have been JW's 35th birthday, the big kickball and kegger fest was held this year on Saturday, June 11th. It took more than a violent thunderstorm to dampen the spirits of all those who came out to help commemorate! Pictures can be seen by clicking the photo below:

5th Annual JW Kickball & Kegger Fest

Special thanks to Barbara (the matriarch of John's "second" family) who took the bulk of the above pictures. Also, thanks to Gobbler's Knob who provided the fest's musical entertainment (here's hoping Dish's amplifier dries out after the big storm) and to Pete who served as a special guest opening act.

Also, John's newest memorial fund supporting the World Youth Movement for Democracy got off to a tremendous start of $1,102 dollars due to an extremely generous donation on the part of John's Aunt Ticia and Uncle Ken as well as Gobbler's Knob who donated half the proceeds from sales of their newest pre-release CD, a commemorative edition for this fest.

By the way, in the humble opinion of this transcriber, the defensive play of the day in the kickball game was accomplished by none other than John's dad. Pitching, JW's dad fielded a hard line drive straight back to the box off Stryker's foot. John's dad fielded the line drive mostly out of self-preservation but admirably held onto to his beer cup while doing so, only to have the force of the caught kickball propel his beer cup clear into the outfield. You had to be there to appreciate such a feat.

So as to not miss out on such doings in the future, mark you calendars now for next year's fest which will be held on Saturday, June 16, 2012 June 23, 2012.

JW's Memorial Fund Goes Global

Thanks to all who have given to JW's memorial fund over the past several years.

For the next several years, John's parents have decided to attempt to give a more global impact to JW's legacy while maintaining the heretofore twofold focus of the fund: youth and technology. This will be accomplished by creating a fund to support the World Movement for Democracy, a global network of democrats, including activists, practitioners, academics, policy makers, and funders, who have come together to cooperate in the promotion of democracy.

Specifically, the goal of JW's memorial fund for the next couple of years is to support the World Movement for Democracy’s Seventh Global Assembly, which will take place in the Latin America/Caribbean region in late 2012, as well as youth engagement in advancing democracy and human rights, particularly using new information and communication technologies (ICTs). To that end, JW's memorial fund will be used in the following ways:

· The World Youth Movement for Democracy, a global network affiliated with the World Movement for Democracy and coordinated by the World Movement Secretariat at the National Endowment for Democracy (a private 501(c)(3) not for profit organization), will conduct a competition and provide one or more awards to youth projects that use new technologies for democracy activism. Competition entrants will be asked to demonstrate the innovative use of technologies in their democracy work and submit project ideas to enhance that work. Using a portion of the contributed funds, the awardee(s) would be provided with round trip air travel and per diem expenses enabling their participation in the Seventh Assembly where they will be given opportunities, through workshops and technology training sessions, to share their project ideas with counterparts across borders within their regions and around the world.

· A portion of the contribution would be used following the Assembly to provide modest amounts of funds to the awardee(s) to implement their project ideas using new technologies.

· A portion of the contribution would be used to help underwrite the local costs of conducting approximately five hands-on technology training sessions conducted by youth activists experienced in using new ICTs in their work. The trainings would be provided for Assembly participants both younger and older.

To understand the potential impact of this aspect of JW's legacy, one needs to look no further than the Arab Spring, an unfolding revolutionary wave in the Arab world that is propelled, in large part, by both youth and technology.

For those interested in assisting in furthering John's legacy, contributions can be made to the National Endowment for Democracy and mailed to:

John William Leonard Memorial Fund
c/o World Movement for Democracy
National Endowment for Democracy
1025 F St., NW, Suite 800
Washington, DC 20004

Relay in Memory of JW

John's mom Relays in memory of JW, her Dad, and her mother-in-law and because she wants to see an end to cancer during her lifetime. Relay gives John's mom the unique opportunity to celebrate the lives of those who have battled cancer and support the American Cancer Society’s lifesaving mission by fighting back against a disease that has already taken too much.

Please support John's mom's efforts to fight back against cancer by joining her Relay For Life® team or making a donation by clicking on this link. You can make a one-time gift or increase your impact by making a monthly donation to support the cause.

Your efforts will help the American Cancer Society fund groundbreaking cancer research, provide up-to-date cancer information, advocate for all people to have access to screening and treatment, and offer free programs and services to improve the quality of life for people facing cancer. By being a part of Relay, we are joining a worldwide movement to help defeat cancer for future generations.

Another Gift of Love

In his memory, yesterday, JW's mom gave to his dad an "Irish Chain Quilt" made, in part, from articles of JW's clothing. As with the earlier quilt for JW's niece, Ariana, this quilt will keep JW's dad and generations to come both physically and spiritually warm.

Memories of John

John being the cyber geek he was, this blog has long been considered a fitting memorial for JW -- providing for all, not just family, the opportunity to keep memories of John alive in cyberspace. Alas, the cyber world is still ephemeral, it's 1's and 0's subject to being zapped or becoming unreadable at any given time. (Does anyone still have any 5 1/4-inch floppy disks on hand)?

In that regard, good old-fashion paper and ink can still be depended upon to last through the ages. In that regard, this April 7th, in memory of JW, his Mom, brother and sister were each given a copy of the first 2 bound volumes of this blog in book form.

Once again, all are encouraged to contribute to what is hoped will be a long-lasting memorial to JW, one way or the other -- one that can be experienced by generations yet to come who will know so well that JW not only lived but that he loved and was loved.

A New April 7th

JW's Mom & Dad got to spend most of the day with someone who experienced her first-ever April 7th today. May JW's niece, Ariana, have many, many, many, many more April 7ths to come and continue to share the joy as she so readily did today. (Click on the picture below to be taken to the gallery which includes Ariana weeding her parents' front lawn).

A New April 7th

Sunrise with JW

I've felt compelled to come here for four years but have yet to do so until now. It's dark and cold, with the ink black waters of the Potomac River flowing by. It's not, however, as terribly cold as that prior April 7th when four inches of snow had fallen in Southern Maryland.

Although dawn is an hour away, off in the distance are the crew teams methodically propelling their racing shells through the frigid river waters. Some of the rowers are the same age that JW was when they were born.

On the other side of the river is the faint outline of the skyline of Rosslyn, the place where JW lived before moving to the District. Unlike that earlier April 7th which was a Saturday, headlights dance all around as the earliest of commuters head off to work, to include those on the Roosevelt Bridge -- the same route JW

used when he became an against-the-flow commuter -- heading from the nation's capital to the suburbs of Northern Virginia. Overhead, planes bank -- closely hewing to the path of the Potomac as they take off from National Airport for places unknown, to include destinations JW most assuredly travelled to himself be it for business or pleasure.

I am standing at the Watergate -- not the complex of apartments, offices and hotels made famous by the Nixon-era break-in -- but rather the terraced steps west of the Lincoln Memorial from which the Watergate complex derives it's name. The steps were originally planned as the official reception area for dignitaries arriving at Washington, DC via barge, but it was never used for that purpose.

For us, however, the Watergate holds a much greater significance. Traveling painstakingly slow through the snow and following the ambulance that was transporting JW from a hospital in Southern Maryland to one in the District on that April 7th morning, it was at that point shortly before dawn that we saw the ambulance's emergency lights come on. Right then and there we knew that something was dreadfully wrong but even then we did not know how wrong. For it was at that moment -- at that place -- that JW experienced irreversible brain stem compression -- it was at that place and time that our first child, our oldest son, died.

So here I was, four years later, a bouquet of flowers in hand, compelled to come back. At first, I was uncertain as to why but slowly I came to understand. Although on that fateful snowy April day we were no more than 25 feet away following the ambulance in our own car - the fact remains that our son died alone -- surrounded by strangers. Coming back, even four years later, was the closest I could come to entering the back of that ambulance when my son needed me the most - to hold his hand - to stroke his head - to kiss him goodbye.

But as I stood on those steps, watching the dawn break in overcast skies over the Lincoln Memorial, I also knew that whereas JW may have died alone physically -- he knew in no uncertain terms and at the most fundamental level that he was surrounded by and enveloped in the love of his family up to the very end of his life. And as the sky lightened, as the rowers came into clearer focus, as the commuting traffic increased and as more and more airplanes were taking off, and as the skyline of Rosslyn began to reflect the early sun - I knew that I was standing at what has become for me the center of the universe because the world and the life of so many people in it are so very different for the better solely because JW lived -- and most importantly of all, because of the manner in which he lived. And although the foot of those steps may be the place that he died, it is not the place where he ceased to make a difference in the world today. Like ripples in a pond, because he loved and was loved by so many, JW continues today, and for generations to come, to be a positive force in the lives of so many others. His spirit lives on, not only in heaven but here on earth as well.

And by the way, I went by those steps a couple of hours later and the flowers were gone. I seriously doubt that the Park Service would be that quick in picking the flowers up. As such, I'm certain that right now they are giving someone somewhere the pleasure of a bouquet of fresh cut flowers. Somehow, JW just keeps on giving.

Posted by John's Dad

April 7th

"...(y)ou know our life -- the outside of it as others do -- and the inside of it -- which they do not. You have seen our whole voyage. You have seen us go to sea, a cloud of sail -- and flag at the peak; and you see us now, chartless, adrift -- derelicts; battered, water-logged, our sails a ruck of rags, our pride gone. For it is gone. And there is nothing in its place. The vanity of life was all we had, and there is no more vanity left in us. We are even ashamed of that we had; ashamed that we trusted the promises of life and builded high -- to come to this!

"I did know that (he) was part of us; I did not know that (he) could go away; I did not know that (he) could go away, and take our lives with (him), yet leave our dull bodies behind. To me (he) was but treasure in the bank; the amount known, the need to look at it daily, handle it, weigh it, count it, realize it, not necessary; and now that I would do it, it is too late; they tell me it is not there, has vanished away in a night, the bank is broken, my fortune is gone, I am a pauper. How am I to comprehend this? How am I to have it? Why am I robbed, and who is benefited"?

Mark Twain [Samuel Clemens] (1835-1910), in a letter to a close friend after his daughter Susy, aged 24, died of meningitis while her parents were abroad.

Walking in the footsteps of John

It’s been four years since I’ve spoken to my brother John. I’ve “talked” to him since then but nothing can replace the two-way communication of a conversation, no matter what the topic. Recently, on my trip to Peru with my family, I hiked the Inca Trail with my brother Mike and our friend Sean, and I found a new connection. The Inca trail is hiked by thousands of tourists and everyone starts from the same starting point, Kilometer 82 towards Machu Picchu. The trail is comfortable enough for one hiker and her bag; it’s a walkway that at times is only surrounded by the mountain on one side and the edge of a cliff on the other. An amazing thought occurred to me on my journey. In the midst of the natural beauty of the Peruvian Andes, I thought that although it’s been five years since he hiked the historical trail, the circumstances of the hike guarantees that I just walked in the same footsteps as John did. There’s a mystical connection in knowing that we shared a unique experience, despite the confines of time. The path was laid out and all I had to do was follow and experience it. I feel blessed that I was able to share this experience with the rest of my family. Not only did I enjoy the amazing experience of the Inca Trail, I also experienced a new connection- a connection that cannot replace the loss of my big brother, but a connection that can in a small way refill the void nonetheless.

Happy Birthday Hammer

Today is the 49th birthday of Stanley Kirk Burrell (born March 30, 1962), better known by his stage name M.C. Hammer (or simply Hammer). The first concert JW's parents took him to (as in drop off and pick up) was an M.C. Hammer concert at the Forest National in Brussels, Belgium in April 1991 when he was 14 years old.

Fortunately, as he matured, so did JW's music tastes.

It's That Time of Year Again!

JW's Memorial

As originally intended. Note prior years at this and additional links.

The Cycle Continues

The below blog post explains the story of the rock from Machu Picchu that has remained on John's headstone for the past three and a half years and which was returned to its rightful place atop the ancient sacred sanctuary just last week. A "temporary replacement" rock from mountaintop has now been placed upon JW's headstone. The intent is that at some point in the future, another member of the Leonard clan, perhaps an Aunt and Uncle, or a cousin, or even a member of the next generation can likewise return this rock to its rightful place, and return with another "temporary replacement," continuing the cycle for years to come.

Amazing

We're Here

Just the three of us ... Amazing!

A Day in the Sacred Valley

It was with mixed trepidation that we approached the latest Leonard family road trip - this one to the Peruvian Andes. Neither of us, of course, would ever had made such a trip on our own. It was the sense of adventure of our children that has brought us to almost 13,000 ft. elevation today.

John lived a very full life. As his parents, we experienced much of his life with him. As with all persons, he began to carve out his own life - parts of which he would share but, of course, there were those parts which we could only glimpse. His life with Alex, his work life, and the adventures upon which he embarked with his normal sense of zest, are all examples.

One of John's most noteworthy adventures and which had a tremendous impact upon him was his hike up the Inca Trail to Machu Picchu. The email embedded in the below blog post captures it all for JW - "amazing."

In a sense, we feared returning to Machu Picchu as a family would only further emphasize his absence (as if it needs any help in that regard). But once again our children propelled us on a path we didn't think we were ready to take.

Today, in JW's words, was amazing - and we didn't even make to Machu Picchu yet. Together, we explored the Sacred Valley of the ancient Incan civilization visiting many ancient archeological sites and as a result experienced first hand the exhilaration JW experienced almost five years ago. In doing do, we achieved more than just a glimpse into the wonderful life John carved out for himself during the time he was allotted in this world - it was almost as if we got to share this adventure firsthand.

Return to Machu Picchu

Today, John's Mom, Dad, brother and sister departed for Peru to commemorate one of the most exhilarating things John did in his life. Specifically, less than a year before he died, he hiked up the Andes to Machu Picchu, a pre-Columbian Inca site located at 7,970 ft above sea

level on a mountain ridge in Peru. Often referred to as "The Lost City of the Incas", Machu Picchu was built around the year 1450 and abandoned a hundred years later, at the time of the Spanish conquest. By clicking on the emailto the left, you can read in his own words how this adventure impacted John.

Several years ago, Chris, who was an intern in John's Dad's last office while in the Federal government, spent some time in South America. While there, he too hiked to Machu Picchu and, as you can see, brought with him John's picture. He also brought back a rock from the mountain that has, as you can see in the picture to the left, been on John's headstone for the past three and a half years. This week, we will be bringing that rock back to that mountain and leaving it in its rightful place, in memory of John's significant achievement.

This time around, while John's bro & sis will be replicating John's three day hike through two 13,000 ft mountain passes, John's Mom & Dad will be taking the train from Cusco, the ancient Inca capital. Check back here for more pictures.

John & St. Paddy's Day

John and his bro & sis in Dublin on St. Patrick's Day, 2005.

John's Room

John, of course, lived life to the fullest. He enjoyed so many things, to include being with his family, having a good time, playing pool, listening to music -- bottom line, John enjoyed a party.

In part for all of the above reasons, the last Christmas gift John's parent got for him and his brother and sister was a pool table to enjoy when visiting Mom & Dad. Unfortunately, John didn't get to use it more than once or twice.

In addition, it was always the vision of John's Mom & Dad to create a "mini-apartment" downstairs for when the children got older and had families of their own -- thus giving everyone enough space to include yet to come grandchildren.

Well, all of the above have finally been able to be combined into a new downstairs at John's parent's place which is now configured pub-style to include a bar which is also a kitchenette. Before and after pictures can be seen by clicking on the below picture.

John's Room

All who come can enjoy themselves and get an appreciation of just how completely John lived life.

How Many People Does It Take to Hang a Quilt?

It takes a family!

After months of diligent quilting by John's mom, and then waiting for the hand painted ladybug quilt hangers, and then waiting for Ariana's daddy to return from Arizona, everyone was finally together in one place to hang Ariana's quilt of fond memories of Uncle Johnny.

John On Top of the World with his Bro

Per Mike's post below.

For JW, this was a favorite pic of himself.

Johnny and the Wild Wild West

Well, John, it has been four and a half years since you, Gina and I trekked up Carr Peak in Southern Arizona. That morning, back in July 2006, your better half, Alex was not feeling well halfway through your Arizona trip that started at the Grand Canyon, included four wheeling down the Pony Express trails outside of Phoenix and ended down in Sierra Vista with a washed out fourth of July evening where the fireworks and the summer thunderstorm sounded all the same.

That day, we hiked the three mile trail up to the top where the now infamous picture of you sitting down drinking out of the camelback with a backdrop of the town 5,000 feet below was taken.

Last weekend, we hiked up Miller Peak, the slightly taller and slightly longer trek right next to Carr Peak. At the top was a very bitter sweet moment reflecting on life and the tremendous adventures you experienced in your short time on this Earth. The fullness of the last year of your life is still a benchmark I try to attain everyday.

Rest a sure, for 10 minutes on top of Miller Peak looking down at your mountain and reminiscing about the past, I was on top of the world.

Save the Date!

Mark your calendars now for the 5th Annual JW Kickball & Kegger Fest to be held at John's parent's place in beautiful Southern Maryland on Saturday, June 11, 2011. Come celebrate with John's family and friends the 35th anniversary of John entering the lives of those who loved him, knew him or even just knew of him. Links to prior fests can be seen here, here, here, here, here and here. Additional details to follow.

The Power of Music (Part II)

Faithful readers of John's blog are often reminded of the power of music for both John and his family, especially with respect to how certain music can heal the soul. Several months ago, the healing power of music once again came into the life of John's family and friends when Emily Arin and her friend Jason gave a home concert on our back deck.

Emily has since released her first studio recorded album, "Patch of Land." The liner notes to this album (see below) reflects the healing power that Emily's music has had for John's parents.

The album contains "When You Knew Me When," the song that particularly moved John's Dad one evening when Vin Scelsa played it back to back (and with which Emily subsequently opened and closed her concert overlooking St. Clements Bay this past summer).

JW's Gift...

... in his own way, he continues to give to others, especially this Christmas season. See this earlier post for additional details.

UPDATE: Thanks to John's brother Mike and sister-in-law Gina, as well as John's Aunt Susie and Uncle John, for likewise making generous contributions to JW's Technology Fund at MCS.

A Picture & a Picture ...

... can, at times, mean so much!